we must march my darlings

hulk>ironman

2008-06-21T06:02:22Z

To add onto my last post...

The Hulk was better than Ironman.

My friend Sarah refuses to agree with me.

Here are my reasons:

1. Take a look at the main characters. Bruce Banner becomes Hulk, and Tony Spark becomes Ironman. Bruce Banner is a nice guy who moves himself all the way from Washington D.C. to Brazil in order to stay away from those he loved so he wouldn't hurt him. Also, without the U.S. government swooping down on him all the time, he could control himself better. (For those who are not familar with Hulk, because of Gamma Ray poisoning, once his pulse reaches 200 beats per minute, he turns all green and big.) Tony Spark is a sarcastic asshole who only becomes *slightly* nicer after being held hostage in Afghanistan for three months. Bruce is nice and sweet. Tony is mean and asshole-ish. Hmm. Which would you prefer?

2. The Hulk has a better romance plot line than Ironman did. This point of my presentation converts me forever to a Hulk fan. /hopeless romantic

3. Hulk has to work harder at controlling himself, and finally does. He's stronger. So there. :P

4. Green>red.

5. Bruce is a cooler name than Tony. Also, isn't Batman's name Bruce? Superhero vibe pwns.

6. Ironman goes to the Hulk movie to ask for a team. Clearly, the former cannot work on his own.

I may add onto this later. I just figured I'd try converting a few of you. :)

greenmachinexxx @ 2008-06-20T11:52:00

2008-06-20T16:54:48Z

Hmm. I just did this long ass meme, and then it disappeared and I can't get it back. What a waste of an entire hour. In the meantime, I had fun looking at the following:

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20060720220156AAMaZ3O

<3

2008-06-20T05:01:48Z

I am overwhelmingly in love with Edward Norton. That is all.

holding on to what i can't feel

2008-06-15T02:21:47Z

1. First Name: Jordan
2. Age: 16...in two weeks and one day. :]
3. Location: Nowhere I want to be.
4. Occupation: Driver's Ed Student Extraordinare.
5. Partner: He's somewhere. I don't know where, though. I'll figure that out later.
6. Kids: are annoying.
7. Brothers/Sisters: Zero.
8. Pets: Two dogs.
9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life: California, Sixteen, Driving, Wisconsin, College hunting.
10. Parents: are okay. Sometimes.
11. Who are some of your closest friends?: Friends are....low on my priority list at the moment. At least, RL friends are. All of my closest RL friends are being very....intolerant at the moment.

(002) Straight/gay/bi
Straight...ish.

(003) Single?:
Affirmative. Well, sort of. I'm married to Emma.

(004) Want to be?:
Well, I'm in this confusing situation at the moment. I haven't decided how I want things to progress at the moment.

(005) Age?:
16...in two weeks and one day. :]

(006) Age you wish you were?:
I'm fine where I am, though I am excited for my birthday.

(007) Your label?:
I've heard it all. By my standards, I do not consider myself anything I have been labeled.

(008) Your height?
5'4"

(009) Your eye color?:
Brown

(010) Any piercings?:
Four...trying to work on my parents for a fifth one.

(011) Any tattoos?:
Nope.

DO YOU...

(012) Smoke:
No, though considering my parents' views of it, I'm surprising tolerant of people who do smoke. I don't really have a problem with it. Maybe I should, but I don't.

(013) Drink:
With family occasionally.

(014) Do drugs:
No.

(015) Read the newspaper:
Occasionally. Not usually, but I do pick it up from time to time.

(016) Talk to strangers who IM you:
I don't normally have strangers IM me. If I don't recognize a screen name, I'll figure out who they are, and usually I will know them. I've never had a random person who has no idea who I am, and vice versa, IM me. At least, not to the best of my knowledge.

(017) Like to walk in the leaves:
It's all right.

(018) Take walks in the rain:?
Sometimes. After a while I get too cold and want to dry off.

(019) Drive:
<33333

(020) Like to drive fast?:
<3333333333333333333333333333333333
>.>
<.<

(021) Hurt yourself:
Not purposefully.

(022) Have a job:
Unofficially. Though, if you ask the parentals, they will say that my two jobs are to stay in school and to do my chores. Woo...

(023) Like who you are:
For the most part.

(024) Consider love a mistake:
Love is never a mistake. Lying and cheating are, though.

(025) Base your judgement on looks alone:
No?

(026) Do you like/love someone?:
It's very complicated. Well, yes, I do. But....*sigh* It's hard to explain. He's a very...wrong person to like, morally. But we're still close, even as friends, and I just...ugh. It's hard.

HAVE YOU EVER...
(027) Been caught doing some thing your weren't supposed to be doing?:
Sure.

(028) Been in love:
No. I tend to have rather short relationships.

(029) Done drugs:
Not illegally.

(030) Gone skinny dipping:
....
Sort of?
Not really.
I'm going to say no.

(031) Had a surgery:
Yes. My tonsils were removed when I was ten years old.

(032) Ran away from home:
Nah.

(033) Played strip poker:
No.

(034) Gotten beat up:
No.

(035) Been on stage:
Yessss<3

(036) Slept outdoors:
Yes.

(037) Pulled an all-nighter:
Well, I've stayed up til the sun rose, but I dropped dead after that and slept for a long time. So, I don't think that really counts.

(038) Talked on the phone all night:
o.O
No.
I hate talking on the phone, generally speaking.

(039) Had an X-ray?
Yep.

(040) Had detention:
Yep.

(041) Been suspended:
Nope.

(042) Been Expelled:
Nope.

(043) Slept all day:
Nope.

(044) Killed someone:
Nope.

(045) Made out with a stranger:
Nope.

(046) Had sex with a stranger?:
Nope.

(047) Kissed the same sex:
Yep.

(048) Done anything sexual with the same sex?
If you consider kissing to be overly sexual, then I suppose.

(049) Been betrayed:
Haven't we all?

(050) Broken the law:
Yeah.

(051) Been arrested:
No.

(052) Been on radio/TV:
Local news.

(053) Been in a mosh-pit:
Yes. I don't like them.

(054) Had a nervous breakdown:
Yes.

(055) Been criticized about your sexual performance?
No. My virginal self has not.

(056) Had a dream that kept coming back:
Yes, well. Sort of. I'll have the same dream a few times over the course of about three years. But never more frequently than about every six months or so.

(057) Seen your favorite band play:
NO. >(

(058) Owned a pair of big sunglasses:
Cheaa.

(059) Worn a huge hat:
Probably?

(060) Judged other people by their clothing:
Most likely.

(062) Been romantically attracted to someone and physically unattracted?:
Haa. Yes.

(063) Been used?:
Yeah.

(064) Been in an abusive relationship?:
No.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

(065) Life on other planets:
I'm not sure. I go back and forth on that. This actually surprises me. At past points in my life, I've said yes, but at the moment, I'm going to go with no.

(066) Miracles:
Well, I hope they exist. I'm not sure if that's necessarily "believing" in them, though.

(067) Astrology:
No.

(068) Magic:
Depends on the magic.

(069) God:
Yes.

(071) True Love:
Only once in a blue moon, but yes.

(072) Ghosts:
Depends on when you ask me. Right now? No.

(074) Love at first sight:
No.

(075) Ying and Yang?:
Sort of...

(076) Witches:
Nah.

(077) The Easter Bunny:
OHYES.

(078) Santa Clause:
I wish I still did. /Nikki&&Rachel

LAST PERSON...
(079) That you laughed at:
Emma

(080) That laughed at you:
My father.

(081) That hurt you:
Umm.
Oops.

(081) That turned you on:
Hahaha.

(082) That kissed you:
Kyle..ages and ages ago. Bleckk.

(083) That hugged you:
One of the parentals.

(084) That you went shopping with :
Teh mother.

(085) To disappoint you:
Katie.

(086) That made you cry:
Uhh...
I think it was a movie, actually.

(087) That brightened up your day:
Emmaaaa.

(088) You saw a movie with:
Sarah.

(089) You talked to on the phone:
Emma.

(090) You talked to on text message:
Emma.

(091) You talked to on IM:
Umm...Emma?

(092) That made you smile:
Emma.

(093) That made you laugh:
Emma.

(094) That saw you cry:
My mom, probably. /Rachel

(095) That bought you something:
The parents. They buy me food.

(096) That danced with you:
MYSELF<3

(097) That you have a crush on:
BLAH.
His name is Chris.

(099) What are your turn-ons?:
It's different for every person. What turns me on about what person may weird me out about another.

(100) What are your turn-off's?:
Smellyyyy. *scrunches nose*

(101) What is best about the opposite sex?:
There are a few things...

(102) What is best about the same sex?:
I understand them better.

(103) What is the last present someone got you?:
Umm.
UMM.
I KNOW THIS.
It was Sarah. But...I don't remember what it was. >.<

(104) What makes you happy?:
Music. /Rachel

(105) What is your B-day?:
June 29.

(106) What is your favorite movie?:
I don't have one.

(107) What is your favorite band?:
BLUEOCTOBER<333333333

(108) What is your favorite type of movie?:
It depends on what I'm in the mood for. Generally, though, I don't like movies much.

(109) What is your favorite season?:
Whatever season I'm in.

(110) What is your favorite month?
June. /Rachel

(111) What is your favorite Holiday?:
New Years.

(112) What is your favorite language?:
Greek.
But I can't speak it. I just think it looks cool written out.
*nods*
:D

(113) What is your favorite thing to do?:
Musiccccc.

(114) What is your favorite color(s)?:
At the moment, it's a tie between grey and blue.

The Who's...
(115) Your best friend(s):
I suppose I'd say Sarah. OR EMMA<3

(116) The one person you can trust with any thing?:
Emma. Completely.

(117) Your favorite singer?:
Justin Furstenfeld<3

(118) Your favorite Actor?:
TAYLORLAUTNERBUTDON'TLAUGHATME.
I actually haven't seen him in anything.
But he's going to be playing my fictional character of all time.
So, when I eventually DO see the movie, I'm either going to fall in love with him or want to murder him.
I'll let you know.

(119) Your favorite Actress?:
Mehh. I don't really have one.

(120) Your favorite President?:
....
I don't know.

a shadow of what once was

2008-06-14T21:54:13Z

When I was much younger, I always remember looking at my parents and seeing them as completely indestructable. They could save me from anything, even the world exploding. Hell, they could have saved the whole fucking world, if need be. And now...? I'm not sure. The older I get, the less magical my parents are in my eyes. They're getting so old so fast. Which sounds almost amusing, I suppose, but I'm completely serious. My mother and I have gotten to the stage in life where, if she needs something physically demanding done, I will do it for her because she isn't always strong enough. This scares me more than a little. I'm moving out in less than two years for good. I'm not sure if my parents realize that, but the day I turn eighteen, I'm packing my bags and leaving. What will happen when that time comes? Being my parents' only child, I think they have become more attatched to me than they would have if I had other siblings. My mother and I (regardless of how often I complain about her) are incredibly close for a teenaged daughter and middle-aged mother. I really don't mean to sound conceited or spoiled or anything of that sort, but I really do not want my mother to fall apart when I leave, and I'm afraid she will.

My dad will of course be saddened to some extent whenever I leave, but he will have his own way of coping with it. He will never show me he is suffering from it, though I'm not sure if I find this reassuring or disconcerting. He will be the strength and rock for my mother, and will deal with whatever he needs to on his own. I need not worry about him as much, though I still do, a little.

My parents are rarely the superheroes I used to always see them as when I was a small child, and I find I'm being constantly reminded of this in day to day life. I'm not sure why this is all hitting me so hard right now, but it is.

because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you

2008-06-13T20:40:03Z

I have absolutely nothing to do. I've downloaded 35 songs today just for the sake of having more music, but I'm not sure if I really like anything that I got. Multiple times I've had to clear extra files off of our computer because we have about *thismuch* memory left, and I couldn't fit the songs that I don't know if I even like on here. It seems like such a waste. In addition to that, I've had one piece of garlic bread and a bowl of ice cream today. I haven't been to the gym in about a month. I feel so unhealthy. I can't even go to the pool because I'm still rather sunburned from my last aquatic excursion. Even if I did go and slab on entirely too much sunscreen, I'd have to shave my legs, and they too are sunburned. I don't really feel like dealing with the pain at the moment. That and, I just took a shower about two hours ago, and I don't want to have to do it again whenever I get home to get the chlorine out of my hair.

I'm really sick of being lazy.
I need something to do with myself.

greenmachinexxx @ 2008-06-13T11:48:00

2008-06-13T16:49:09Z

My LJ may look a little...weird for a while.

I suck at changing layouts.
Twin did it the first time, and Suzie did it last time.

So now I'm trying to figure this out on my own.

But, yes, I am aware of its current screwed-up-ness.

Edit: Well, I fixed it. It's just back to what it was before. Now I need to work on getting a header...

itunes memes galore

2008-06-13T00:30:55Z

How many total songs?

"423 items, 1.1 days, 1.71 GB."

Sort by song title - first and last?

First: 'A-Punk'--Vampire weekend.
Last: '3 Weeks, She Sleeps'--Blue October

Sort by time - shortest and longest?

Shortest: Opening song to the Avenue Q Musical (1:05)
Longest: 'Dear Jamie...Sincerely Me'--Hellogoodbye (8:35)

Sort by Album - first and last?

First: 'Time is Running Out' (Absolution)--The Muse
Last: 'I Got You (I Feel Good)' (20 All Time Greatest Hits)--James Brown

Sort by Artist - first and last?

First: 2 'Until the World'--The Afters
Last: 'From Yesterday'--30 Seconds From Mars

Top five played songs?

'The Curse of Curves'--Cute is What We Aim For
'Calling You'--Blue October
'18th Floor Balcony'--Blue October
'Do You Remember'--Jack Johnson
'The Adventure'--Angels and Airwaves

Find the following words. How many songs show up?

Sex: 3
Death: 10
Love: 36
You: 73
Home: 3
Boy: 11
Girl: 8

Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING.

How does the world see you?
'Crazy'--Gnarls Barkley
Doesn't surprise me.

Will you have a happy life?
'I Guess That's Why They Call It the Blues'--Elton John
I guess I won't.

What do my friends really think of you?
'Wait for You'--Elliot Yamin
Y'know, every time I get one of these questions, it always ends up being a song that says all my friends are madly in love with me. o.O

Do people secretly lust after you?
'Thank God I'm Not the One'--The Afters
Hard to tell.

How can you make yourself happy?
'Build God, and Then We'll Talk'--Panic! At the Disco
DRUGS. And...roaches in my bed.

What should you do with your life?
'Where is the Love'--Black Eyed Peas
Search for something a number of people will never believe in.

Will you ever have children?
'Into the Ocean'--Blue October
Well...I'll have a hard time trying.

What is some good advice for you?
'Sweet Caroline'--Neil Diamond
Enjoy summer love?

How will you be remembered?
'The Middle'--Jimmy Eats World
Greeeeeeaat.

What is your signature dancing song?
'Let It Go'--Blue October
Maybe if I'd like to dance right into my coffin.

What do you think is your current theme song?
'It's My Life'--Bon Jovi
Hmm...I could agree.

What does everyone think your current theme song is?
'Don't Matter'--Akon
I suppose...maybe.

What song will play at my funeral?
'Snap Yo Fingers'--Lil John featuring E-40 and Sean Paul
Interesting....

What type of men / women do you like?
'Crush'--Paramore
The people you wouldn't think I'd normally be attracted to...which is completely true.

What is your day going to be like?
'Clark Gable'--The Postal Service
Hmm...I wish.

Will I get far in life?
'Don't Leave Me'--All American Rejects.
Maybe? I'll have somebody chasing after me to the point that it's annoying, which does tend to distract one.

How do my friends see me?
'Crush'--Angels and Airwaves.
Why must EVERY iTunes meme tell me the same thing about my friends?

When will I get married?
'Passing the Hat'--Coldwar Kids
I'm not sure, but it will most likely be in spite of the Catholic church. This is actually rather amusing, as I am a very nonreligious Catholic.

What's my theme song?
'City'--Sara Bareilles
I can see it.

What is the story of my life?
'Congratulations'--Blue October
How depressingly reassuring.

What am I like in bed?
'The Ice is Getting Thinner'--Death Cab For Cutie
I think that means I kind of suck. Yay.

How can I get ahead in life?
'So Damn Clever'--Plain White T's
Play mind games and sleep around.

What is my best feature?
'Better Than Me'--Hinder
I'm better than you. :P

How is today going to be?
'Number 3'--The Mitch Hansen Band
Interesting.

What is in store for this weekend?
'I Will Possess Your Heart'--Death Cab For Cutie
A creepy lover of mine will stalk me.

What is my life like at the moment?
'The Reason'--Hoobastank
I pretty much failed at life before, and I failed at our relationship, but you should take me back because you *inspired* me to be a better person, even though I treated you like crap.

What song describes my secrets?
'My Heart Goes Out'--Warren Barfield
My heart goes out to you, but you don't even know me, noooo you don't even knooooow mee. So basically, I see random women sitting alone at restaurants and I know we're destined to be *TOGETHERFOREVER*.

What is my current lover like?
'Lips of an Angel'--Hinder
He sucks. I want my past lover back. They are better. Woo.

What song will they play at my funeral?
'A World Without You'--The Mitch Hansen Band
This actually cheered me up a little. Everybody will mourn over my death.

How does the world see me?
'Over My Head (Cable Car)'--The Fray
Everybody thinks I fail.

Will I have a happy life?
'Waiting'--Shiny Toy Guns
Perhaps, though I'll be thoroughly disatisfied.

What do my friends really think of me?
'I Don't Know'--The Mitch Hansen Band
They don't understand me and my weirdo ways.

Do people secretly lust after me?
'The Diary of Jane'-- Breaking Benjamin
In a really creepy way, yes.

Will I accomplish my goals in life?
'Wonderwall'--Oasis
Well, depends on if the person I'm lusting over reciprocates even a small iota of my feelings back to me. Otherwise, I guess my success level is a little bit screwed over.

Will I find true love?
'A Thousand Miles'--Vanessa Carlton
Yes, though my relationship is gonna suck.

How do I treat others?
'Home'--Michael Buble
I want to go hoooooooome. So, if you're gonna join me, I guess I'll treat you well. Maybe.

we're spinning empty bottles and it's the five of us...

2008-06-12T05:03:55Z

Sometimes, I really can't understand my parents. I try, and I just can't.

My parents, on the other hand, do not give any attempt whatsoever to understand me. They consider me a selfish, rebellious teenager who wants to get as much attention as she can. I admit, I have my selfish moments, and yes, I am rebellious...sort of frequently, and of course I like the occasional attention (hellooo...doesn't everybody?), though I do not believe this makes me the ungrateful daughter my parents often consider me to be.

Being a teenager sucks ass.

do it :)

2008-06-10T17:50:44Z

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know things about you. I don't care if we never talk, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. You're on my list, so let me know who I am friends with (just put the following in a reply if you do it).

1. Can you cook?
2. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. Are you Dirty or Clean?
8. Any tattoos and/or piercings
9. Worst habit?

HERE COMES THE FUN ...
1. How did we meet?
2. What's your philosophy on life?
3. Negative or Optimistic?
4. What was your dream growing up?
5. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
6. What was your first impression of me?
7. Tell me one weird fact about you:
8. What's your favorite memory of us?
9. Have you ever kept anything from me?
10. What do you think of me as a person?
11. Do you think I'm sane or insane?
12. Would you cry for me if I died?
13.. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
14. If you could change anything about me, would you?
15. How do you fall asleep?
16. Ever gotten angry with me?
17. Would you go on a blind date if I set you up?
18. If you had one day to live, what would you do?
19. A million bucks... what would you do with it?
20. What is your worst fear?
21. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
22. Can you sing or dance?
23. In one word, how would you describe me? Be honest!
24. Will you repost this so I can fill it out?

Comments shall be screened.

mad about itunes meme's

2008-06-08T00:44:05Z

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

1) Are you a male or female?
'Cath'--Death Cab For Cutie
Comment: An unhappy girl, apparently.

2) Describe yourself:
'Chemistry of a Car Crash'--Shiny Toy Guns
Comment: I'm hopelessly in love with someone who isn't with me right now.

3) How do you feel about yourself?
'The Curse of Curves'--Cute is What We Aim For
Comment: Curse my female body. Actually, three days ago I would have agreed.

4 Describe your ex boyfriend/girlfriend
'What Hurts the Most'--Rascal Flatts
Comment: This is the last thing that describes my ex-boyfriend.

5) Describe your current location:
'So I Thought'--Flyleaf
Comment: More of a mental location. I can't move on?

6) Describe what you want to be:
'Drops of Jupiter'--Train
Comment: In love. :D

7) Describe your best friend:
'Hero/Heroine'--Boys Like Girls
Comment: Apparently, being in love with my best friend is a guilty of pleasure of mine. (Actually, sometimes it is.)

8) Your favorite color is:
'Just Lose It'--Eminem
Comment: If judging by this song, I would say some color only available to the human brain when it is stoked out on cocaine.

9) You know that:
'Constellations'--Jack Johnson
Comment: Simple happiness is often the best kind.

10) What is the weather like?
'One Last Breath'--Creed
Comment: Rainy. (I wish.)

11) If your life was a TV show what would you name it?
'Scotty Doesn't Know'--Lustra
Comment: LOL it'd be about be me banging some guy behind my boyfriend's back. Sort of like any other teen reality TV show you see these days.

13) what did you do today?
'Another Town'--Regina Spektor
Comment: I went out of town. (I didn't...)

14) What is the best advice you have to give?
'That Time'--Regina Spektor
Comment: Kiss anywhere except the mouth. :)

15) Describe your love life:
'Come Back to Me'--Plain White T's
Comment: I'm pathetically in love with someone who wants nothing to do with me? Y'know, that'd almost be more exciting than my current love life situation, seeing as how I cannot find a single person I am attracted to. :(

16) How are you going to die?
'White Houses'--Vanessa Carlton
Comment: I'm going to lose my virginity in a white house, then he will leave me, and...I'll die of a broken heart?

17) If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
'Don't Take the Girl'--Tim McGraw
Comment: I shouldn't choose the girl name? Well, my name half the time is used for boys.

18) What do your friends think of you?
'Sitting, Waiting, Wishing'--Jack Johnson
Comment: They think I don't think they're exciting enough lol.

19) What is your funeral song going to be?
'Together Forever'--Danny Wright
Comment: Aww, that's sort of sweet. ^.^

20) What are you going to repost this as?
'Closing In'--Imogen Heap
Comment: Hokay.

i did not choose him, he did not choose me.

2008-06-07T02:08:11Z

Wrath

Who did you last get angry with? My father.
What is your weapon of choice? Daggers.
Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? Yes.
How about the same sex? Yes.
Who was the last person who got really angry at you? My father.
What is your pet peeve? Ignorance.
Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I act like I'm completely over it, though I never am.

Sloth

What is one thing you're suppose to do daily that you haven't? Clean my bathroom.
What is the latest you've ever woken up? Around 3:30 p.m.
Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? I've actually been fairly consistant with keeping up with everyone I wish to.
What is the last lame excuse that you made? "Sorry, I'm sick. Can't make it. Bye."
Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? I used to adore them.
How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock this morning? I've used the snooze button once, and never again. It screws me over.

Gluttony

What is your overpriced Starbucks beverage of choice? I prefer tea, and not from Starbucks.
Are you a meat eater? It depends. Right now, no. I may be in a few days again, though.
What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? Six martinis in one hour. Never again.
Are you comfortable with your drinking and eating habits? For the most part. I slip a little occasionally and indulge, but not often.
Do you enjoy candy and sweets? <3333
Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods? Depends on my mood. Typically sweet.
Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"? No, oddly enough?

Greed

How many credit cards do you own? None.
If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it? Buy a fucking amazing car.
Would you rather be rich or famous? Rich. I never want to be overly famous.
Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks? Depends on what I'd be doing, and how much exactly "megabucks" amounds up to.

Pride

What's one thing that you have done that you're most proud of? One of my former teachers is requesting my thesis essay over Shakespeare's influence on modern society's literature and entertainment so he may publish it for me in a world renowed journal.
What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of? They'd probably say something about my individual spirit, or my unwavering loyalty, or something else equally as parent-ish.
What thing would you like to accomplish late in your life? Visiting all seven continents before I die.
Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? Yes. I almost prefer third.
Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? Haven't we all? Yes, I have.
Have you ever cheated to get a better score? Yep. I tend to blow off homework.
What did you do today that you're proud of? I thought about cleaning my bathroom. I never got around to it, but the thought did cross my mind.

Lust

How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms)? Three, not including myself.
How many people have seen you naked (not counting physicians, doctors, family, locker rooms, or when you were a young child)? Two.
Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a person of your chosen sex during a normal conversation? LOL yeah.
What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice? Shoulders, oddly enough. They make me melt.
Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons? At one time? No.
Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? No.

Envy

What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own? My friend Andy's car. zomglove<3
Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? Nobody. I'll be in charge of my own decor, thanks.
If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be? Myself. I don't think I could be anybody else.
Have you ever been cheated on? Due to my small number of significant others and my notoriously short relationships, zero times.
Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? Of course.
What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? I wish my skin could stay as pale in the summer as it is in the winter. I tan very easily. I don't care for it much.

What deadly sin...

Do you do the most often? Wrath.
Do you do the least often? Probably greed, but I have my fair share of that, too.
Is your favorite to act on? Lust, though many people would never guess this. I pretend to be innocent.

from the first time i pressed my lips against yours

2008-06-07T01:43:13Z

(01) pick one song to listen to repeatedly:
"The Adventure" by Angels and Airwaves.

(002) your favourite musical instrument:
To play? The guitar. To listen to? The piano.

(003) what colour is your hair (naturally)?:
An average brown, though it's darkened over the years.

(004) if you could turn back time and redo one day of your life, what day would it be?:
I wouldn't.

(005) Your date of birth?
June 29, 1992

(006) favourite condiment:
Usually ranch dressing, though I also enjoy barbeque sauce.

(007) your dirtiest secret:
:)

(008) what are you currently wearing?:
A black, grey, and purple striped sundress with grey hearts on it.

(009) your eye colour:
Brown.

(010) your favourite eye colour:
I don't have a preference. I like each for different reasons.

(012) what was the biggest mistake of your life?:
Making the easy decision, instead of the right one.

(013) top five best movies ever:
I'm not a huge fan of movies.

(014) favourite fictional character:
Jacob Black or Alanna of Trebond.

(015) your toothpaste brand name of preference:
I enjoy Crest.

(016) are you obsessive?:
Secretly, yes.

(017) when you laughed the hardest in your life, who were you with?:
I'm not sure about my entire life, but recently it was Sarah.

(018) your favourite slang word:
I don't really have one.

(019) when was the one single time you were the most scared?:
When my mom forgot to take her medicine.

(020) your comfy/lazy clothes:
An oversized t-shirt and socks.

(021) your favourite season:
Typically whichever one I am experiencing. Because of this, summer. (Although it's technically not summer, it feels like it here.)

(022) the most interesting person you know:
My sophomore World History AP teacher.

(021) do you have any siblings?:
No.

(022) what is your favourite book?:
It depends on the mood I'm in. Right now I'm feeling unoriginal and fangirlish, so I would have to say Twilight and its two sequels.

(023) what is something you think should be legalized that is currently illegal?:
Gay marriage.

(024) what is something you think should be illegalized that is currently legal?:
I'm generally opposed to the death penalty, though not as much as I used to be.

(025) the most humiliating moment of your life:
I don't have a particular one. I've learned to laugh at myself and get over it.

(026) your favourite number:
29.

(027) the best year/age of your life:
I tend to enjoy whichever one I'm currently at the most.

(028) what is today's date?:
June 6, 2008

(029) How old were you when you had your first crush?
Five years. Kindergarten. Thomas McQueans.

(030) favourite television show:
Friends.

(031) what is something you are really passionate about?:
Music and ethics.

(032) do you believe in destiny/fate?:
Right now, I do not, but I wish I did.

(033) is marriage important to you?:
Not overly. If and when I ever do get married, it will be, though I'm not too crazy about the idea.

(034) what is your sexual orientation?:
I'm going to say straight, though I haven't completely ruled out anything else.

(035) do you keep a journal/blog?:
Obviously.

(036) your dream car:
I don't particularly have one. I have a feeling I will fall completely in love with whatever I can manage to get my hands on.

(037) why do you fill surveys?:
They're one of my guilty pleasures.

(038) what are your future career plans?:
Writing, traveling the world, and teaching, simultaneously.

(039) who is your idol?:
I don't have one.

(040) do you/did you attend public school?:
I attended a Catholic private school for my first year and a half of schooling, and then switched to public school. I've been here ever since.

(041) your favourite place to have sex:
I don't have enough experience to be able to answer this. :)

(042) do you consider yourself to be healthy?:
Recently I've been very healthy, though I'm not sure how long my health kick with last.

(043) would you say you are a really serious person, or do you have a sense of humour?:
I think everyone is both humorous and serious, including myself.

(044) what are your views on abortion?:
I don't think I'd be able to go through with it, though I don't look down on those who do choose to go that route.

(045) are you more passive, assertive, or aggressive?:
It depends mainly on how bitchy I'm feeling.

(046) your favourite place to be:
Outside in the rain. Anywhere.

(047) are you religious?:
Not as much anymore.

(048) your favourite musical artist/group:
Blue October <3

(049) do you like to hear the phone ring?:
Not lately, due to the fact that it is always the same man from Ohio calling me, trying to convince me we are ex-lovers and he deserves another chance. He refuses to believe I am underaged, definitely not his ex-anything, and would very much like him to leave me the hell alone.

(050) your favourite animal:
I think they're all very interesting.

You're feeling:
Happier.

To your left:
Six shelves of books and the laundry room.

On your mind:
The ocean.

Last meal included:
A green apple, a granola bar, and soy milk.

You sometimes find it hard to:
Directly confront someone. I am notorious for beating around the bush.

The weather:
Is there.

Something you have a collection of:
Candles.

A smell that cheers you up:
Rain.

A smell that can ruin your mood:
Smells do not discourage my mood. Most of them simply intrigue me.

How long since you last shaved:
Two days.

The current state of your hair:
Up and out of my face.

The largest item on your desk/workspace (not computer):
My notebook.

Your skill with chopsticks:
On a scale from 1-10, it amounts to about a negative four, though not from lack of trying.

Which section you head for first in a bookstore:
The traveling section.

Something you're craving:
Money. I can't find any.

Your general thoughts on the presidential race:
As it will affect my life very much, I should care more, but I really don't. I prefer Obama win over McCain, though I won't be overly upset if the latter wins.

How many times have you been hospitalized this year:
Zero.

Favourite place to go for a quiet moment:
My bedroom.

You've always secretly thought you'd be a good:
Therapist.

Something that freaks you out a little:
Double-jointed body parts. Although they also fascinate me.

Something you've eaten too much of lately:
Ice cream.

You have never:
tried sushi.

You never want to:
try sushi.

Your cell phone?
About seven inches from my right hand.

Your significant other?
Nonexistant.

Your hair?
is clean.

Your mother?
With my father.

Your father?
With my mother.

Your favorite thing?
Interesting smells.

Your dream last night?
Disappointing.

Your favorite drink?
Generally water.

Your dream/goal?
To travel the room.

The room you're in?
I'm actually in a hallway/closet type of thing. We don't have an actual "computer room."

Your fear?
Wasting my life and not realizing it until it's too late to change.

Where do you want to be in 6 years?
Graduating college.

Where were you last night?
On a walk around my neighborhood.

What you're not?
Afraid.

Muffins?
No thanks. I prefer bagels.

One of your wish list items?
Cartilage piercing.

Where you grew up?
Same place I'm still at. Still doing some growing up.

The last thing you did?
I enjoyed some time in my backyard, soaking up the late afternoon beams of sun.

What are you wearing?
The same thing I was the last time I was asked this.

Your TV?
Is ridiculously pretentious.

Your pets?
Two dachshunds.

Your computer?
Is a real pain in the ass.

Your life?
Is about to begin, I'm hoping.

Your mood?
Sing-songy.

Missing someone?
Inevitably.

Your car?
cannot get here soon enough.

Something you're not wearing?
Socks.

Favorite Store?
World Market.

Your summer?
Is gonna rock.

Like someone?
I shouldn't.

Your favorite color?
Green.

When is the last time you laughed?
About twenty three minutes ago.

Last time you cried?
A week ago, Wednesday.

and walls of the deepest blue

2008-06-06T03:44:34Z

Put your itunes in alphabetical order and choose your favourite song from each letter.

a. 'almost lover'--a fine frenzy
b. 'be still my heart'--the postal service
c. 'claire de lune'--debussy
d. 'daydream believer'--the monkees
e. 'everlasting love'--danny wright
f. 'first day of my life'--bright eyes
g. 'goodbye my lover'--james blunt
h. 'hopsital beds'--coldwar kids
i. 'i'm not okay'--my chemical romance
j. 'juliet'--lmnt
k. 'kiss me'--sixpence none the richer
l. 'lullaby'--the mitch hansen band
m. 'miserable at best'--mayday parade
n. 'nine in the afternoon'--panic at the disco
o. 'one last breath'--creed
p. 'passing the hat'--coldwar kids
q. 'quando, quando, quando'--michael buble (actually, it's my only 'q' song)
r. 'rainy monday'--shiny toy guns
s. 'such great heights'--the postal service
t. 'take my breath away'--berlin
u. 'until the world'--the afters
v. 'voyage around the moon'--the saturn 5 (only 'v' song)
w. 'wonderwall'--oasis
x. i don't have an 'x' song.
y. 'your heart is an empty room'--deathcab for cutie
z. no 'z' songs, either.

greenmachinexxx @ 2008-05-09T18:07:00

2008-05-09T23:08:48Z

I'm going to pop show tonight.

It's basically a choir concert.

And then I'm off to Katie's.

And then I have my Magik performance tomorrow night. I still don't know all my lines. I'm kind of freaking out.

sleep, sleep, slee---zzzzzzz...

2008-05-09T01:55:31Z

I feel absolutely wonderful. I slept from about 5:00 to around 7:30, and it was exactly what I needed. I probably won't fall asleep tonight until 2:30 or so, making me even more tired tomorrow than if I hadn't napped at all, but right now I can't really make myself care. Not being exhausted right now is worth being tired tomorrow. It'll be Friday, anyway.

At the moment, I'm looking for the cheapest flight possible for sometime during June to Sauk, Wisconsin. And apparently, none of the airlines have heard of this place because I can't it anywhere. And, being unfamiliar with Wisconsin geography, I have no idea which airport would be closest. It's a little difficult. So, maybe I should just wait to hear back from Jordan.

So, in the meantime, I steal meme's from Laur and do them.

How am I feeling today?: 'everlasting love'--danny wright. (well...not really. quite the opposite, actually.)

Will I get far in life?: 'love will make you beautiful'--the afters. (hmm...)

How do my friends see me?: 'don't leave me'--the afters. (i'm...flaky? great...)

Where will I get Married?: 'clumsy card house'--blue october. (well, it means i'll probably get married in any event. maybe it'll be in some weird fun house...?)

What is my best friend's theme song?: 'far away'--nickelback. (i could see it...if somebody suddenly declared their undying and eternal love that had been going on for like, eight years or something.)

What is the story of my life?: 'fully alive'--flyleaf. (...not really...)

What is/was highschool like?: 'love song'--sara bareilles. (haaaaaah)

How is today going to be?: 'fight for all the wrong reasons'--nickelback. (...okay.)

How can I get ahead in life?: 'casper slide'--cha cha slide. (woow...what a careerrr.)

What is the best thing about me?: 'can you feel the love tonight?'--lion king. (i have some sort of sixth sense and physically can feel love dissipating throughout a room. ohh yeah.)

What is in store for this weekend?: 'rocket man'--elton john. (oh yeah, i forgot to tell you guys, i'm making my yearly trip to the moon in a couple of days. i'll send a postcard.)

What song describes my parents?: 'together forever'--danny wright. (aww i hope so.)

My grandparents?: 'animals' by nickelback. (LOL!!! although, it does have a bit of an eww factor.)

How is my life going?: 'i don't know'--the mitch hansen band. (well, i'm not a crazed vampire in love with some human girl, so, not really.)

What song will they play at my funeral?: 'next contestant'--nickelback. (my possibly-already-deceased husband will apparently have to be keeping away all of the other ghosties in the next life from me. my soul is pretty hott, guys.)

How does the world see me?: 'she doesn't get it'--the format. (everybody knows i'm not easy, but they're going to try anyway...?)

Will I have a happy life?: 'hero/heroine'--boys like girls. (well, somebody will be chasing madly after me in any event. that could be kind of nice, or really really bad.)

Do people secretly lust after me?: 'chemistry of a car crash'--shiny toy guns. (WELL, love, lust, same thing, right? ...somaybe?)

How can I make myself happy?: 'clear the area'--imogen heap. (...huh?)

What should I do with my life?: 'figure it out'--plain white t's. (well, my boyfriend is going to be perpetually annoyed with me, so i should dump him, i guess.)

Will I ever have children?: 'dance, dance'--fallout boy. (looks like i'm getting pregnant from a one night stand.)

What is some good advice for me?: 'perfect'--simple plan. (don't expect too much from anyone, we're all just human?)

What is my signature dancing song?: 'making a memory'--plain white t's. (i guess i do better at slow dancing?

What do I think my current theme song is?: 'dirty little secret'--all american rejects. (actually, that'd make sense. everybody is being really secretive lately.)

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?: 'newport living'--cute is what we aim for. (i don't like whores or liars. which is true, i guess, to a certain extent.)

What type of men/women do you like?: 'headlock'--imogen heap. (so, men that i could never be with, apparently. lovely.)

i need this old train to break down

2008-05-08T02:32:06Z

The power went out at the gym today. It was the oddest thing. Our gym is hugely popular and it's open 24/7/365 (or 366 this year), and I've never seen it closed ever since it opened back in 2005. But today, in the middle of my yoga class (I took my mother with me this time--but more about that later), the power just...flickered out and died. I was wondering how disappointing that would be if you were on say, a treadmill or something, and you had just begun your marathon training or something. I'd personally take it as a sign that hey, maybe I'd be better off not trying to run twenty-six miles. But, as we were in yoga and weren't using the electricity, we were able to finish our class generally on time. We ended about fifteen minutes early, but only after three other gym instructers had come in to tell our yoga teacher to end the class because the rest of the gym had cleared out. The locker rooms were really creepy. There are a couple of emergency lights in there, but the main source of light was the large red exit sign at the entrance/exit of the locker room, so it was either really dark or everything had this creepy red glow.

So, my mother and yoga. She actually did surprisingly well. My mother gets almost no excercise (on average), and I've been pushing her to go to yoga with me off and on for the past few months, and I finally got her to go today. She wasn't overly crazy about it during the session, but she said afterwards she was glad she went and she wanted to go again. This is wonderful news to me. My mother is quite sensitive about her weight, and she's been looking for a good workout routine for her and her body. I think yoga is what she needs. It's low impact, high flexibility and balance, adds muscle, and is relatively low cardio. I also think she can stick with it if I help her. She hasn't gone to the gym because she "hasn't felt like it" (her catchphrase which is used on a daily basis, FYI), but if she has somebody to go with and work out with, she may feel more inclined to go.

Right now I'm going through my yearbook with my sharpie, and drawing a border around my friend's pictures. I've done this for as long as I can remember with my yearbooks. It's relaxing, almost. I enjoy going back in past yearbooks and looking to see who I was friends with. It's almost sad, the way you sometimes forget these things.

I'm also deciding not to do any homework tonight. I already read what I needed to for English from our book To Kill a Mockingbird, and I'm hoping we didn't have to do anything else. I should probably check my teacher's website, just in case. I also may have some World History, but I'm hoping not. He always just lectures over the chapter we were supposed to read for an hour and a half, so I'm ~~praying to dear God almighty~~ expecting he'll do the same tomorrow.

Is it really only Wednesday? I could've sworn this week has been long enough to have already ended twice.

the long and the short of it

2008-05-07T01:41:15Z

1. Go to www.flickr.com.
2. Type in your answer to the question in the "search" box.
3. Use only the first page.

What is your first name? (btw--I don't know why this popped up under "Jordan", but it did.)

What is your favorite food?

What is your favorite flower or plant?

What is your favorite color?

Who is your celebrity crush? (Yeah...pretty attractive.....)

(In spite of Laur.)

Who is your favorite Disney princess?

Favorite drink? (It's supposed to be sweet peach tea--but that didn't really pop up on Flickr on the first page, so I'm posting regular iced tea. But for the record, it needs the peach in there for it to be favorited.)

Dream Vacation?

Favorite dessert?

What do you want to be when you grow up? (Hopefully I'll be happier than this guy, though.)

What do you love most in life? (For me, it's a certain time of day--late afternoons/very early evening. Whenever this picture was taken.)

One word to describe you?

What do you dream about? (Hallways, in general.)

le bored

2008-04-27T20:06:34Z

What's your name?
Jordan

How tall are you?
5'4. A little taller, but my body refuses to mount up to 5'5. I'm like, a hundredth of an inch away.

What color are your eyes?
Brown.

What color is your hair?
Brown.

Are you Male or Female?
Female.

What is your best physical feature?
Weeellll...I've always been kind of fond of my lips, but I'm not sure if I'd consider them to be my BEST physical feature on the list. They're up there, though.

What's your shoe size?
Eight.

Glasses, yes or no?
Yes. And I have contacts. However, I wear neither.

Did you ever have braces?
Yes. For thirty-one months. >.<

On a typical day you are wearing?
Jeans and a shirt. Or leggings and a dress. It's kind of half and half.

When you go to bed you're wearing?
PJ pants and a big t-shirt.

How often do you exercize?
Umm...well, I go to the gym twice a week, but I usually walk my dogs about twice a week, too. I could get more.

SUBJECT TWO- MUSIC

Name two of your favorite bands.
Blue October and Shiny Toy Guns.

Name two of your favorite singers.
Ehh, I'm not a huge fan of individual singers.

Name one song that describes your life right now?
"Rainy Monday" by Shiny Toy Guns

Name one song that describes your life 1 year ago?
Hmm. Probably "Photograph" by Nickelback, even though I couldn't stand that song. I got sick of it.

What are the preset stations in your car?
Umm, it's one of the following: 102.7, 99.5, 96.1, or 101.1. Or maybe 101.9.

What's the last CD you bought?
I don't remember. I haven't bought a CD in a long time. Probably last summer when I splurged and spent all my money on like, seven CD's.

Was the last CD you burned an actual CD or a mix?
I've never burned a CD.

Name one band you're embarrassed to like but do?
Aly and AJ haha. I haven't listened to many of their songs, but I really like about three or four of them.

If you could only attend 1 concert ever again, it would be?
Ughhh that's so hard. Probably a multi-band concert with Blue October and Shiny Toy Guns. :P I couldn't choose between the two.

Name a group you use to like but feel you've grown out of?
Nickelback and Nelly Furtado.

SUBJECT THREE- MOVIES and TELEVISION

Name your favorite actor?
Hmm. I don't really have a favorite.

Name your favorite actress?
Same as above.

Name your favorite television show right now?
Friends!

Name a really cool movie you have recently seen?
The last movie I saw was PotCIII, and I think it's pretty cool.

Your favorite canceled television show?
Good question. I'm not sure. I barely watch TV ever. I don't know what's cancelled and what's not. >.>
I really liked the show Psyche. Is it still on?

Name 1 movie you wish you hadn't wasted time and money?
Hmm. Yeah, I'm going to steal Rachel's answer. Cloverfield. I didn't hate it or anything, but I wasn't a huge fan.

You would never watch a movie with?
If I was anybody else, myself. I talk throughout the entire thing.

Three favorite tv channels?
Ehh. Don't really have any.

Favorite reality show?
America's Next Top Model. I wouldn't have remembered that if I hadn't been talking with Laur earlier.

Favorite character on a reality show?
Don't have one.

SUBJECT FOUR- WORD ASSOCIATION

coffee-bean
dog-ears
slut-red
candy-pastel
pole-tongue
ocean-blue
brave-lifting weights
loving-family
cookie-chocolate chip
death-grim
life-Wow. I agree with Rachel. I first thought of "death".
child-happiness

SUBJECT FIVE- WHICH WOULD YOU PREFER?

Eaten by a lion OR Eaten by thousands of small insects?
Lion. I die faster.

Skydiving from a plane OR Bungee jumping off a bridge?
Ahh! I can't choose. I want to do both, eventually. Probably skydiving, first.

No television OR No music?
No TV.

No more pizza, ever OR No more chocolate, ever?
No more chocolate.

A trip to Europe OR a trip to Hawaii?
Europe.

An hour with your future soul mate OR An hour with a lost loved one?
Neither.

Sex without love OR love without sex?
No idea. Probably sex without love, I guess.

SUBJECT SIX- THE LOVE LIFE

Are you currently in a relationship?
No.

Are you currently looking or interested in someone?
Not really, actually.

Are you a virgin?
Yep.

If yes, how long do you plan to be one?
Umm...no idea. I don't really have it planned out.

How many times have you been in love?
I'd say none.

Looking back, how do you feel about that person now?
...

Name three physical things you look for in someone?
Clean hair, a genuine smile, and nice eyes.

Biggest turn offs include?
Arrogance, ignorance, and bad smell.

Your ideal date would be?
Depends on the person.

You want to get married, where, when, how?
Umm.
Somewhere on Earth, before I die, and with a man?
That's as specific as my requirements are right now.

Does anyone have feelings for you right now that you don't return?
Maybe?

confirmation

2008-04-27T01:19:36Z

It seems much earlier in the day to me.

I woke up this morning to my alarm at 8:15. I needed to hop in the shower to wash my hair and shave my legs quickly before putting on my dress. That done, I put myself in a towel and headed to the kitchen for a little bit of breakfast while my hair dried. I ended up eating a toasted nutella sandwich and a glass of water. I wanted cereal and milk, but we didn't have cereal and milk, and nutella and water sounded better than cereal and water.

My mother wanted to do my hair today, so I let her. It felt silly, standing there, almost towering over her, while she blew dry my hair and brushed it out. I felt like I was seven years old again, but I didn't mind. It made her happy, and I wasn't overly sure what to do with my hair, anyway.

After that, I slipped into my dress and heels and waited for my aunt to arrive. She was running about seven minutes late, so I was able to sit down on our sofa in the living room and collect my thoughts before going to church.

But, I wasn't really able to think about much. I didn't really know how I felt. I was about to make my commitment to the Catholic church forever. I was going to say, "Yes, I will always follow this religion, until the day I die."

I've never made that sort of commitment before. I've never gotten married, so I've never committed myself to anything forever. Yes, I was baptised, but that was my parents committing me, and that's what Confirmation is for. I am renewing my vows and cementing my faith.

I don't regret it at all, it's just a big step, that's all. And, in a really nerdy way, I'm actually really excited to see where this takes me. :)

a lyrical melody

2008-04-25T17:49:31Z

1. Pick out 10-20 of your favourite songs and Google the lyrics.
2. Pick lines from them. Avoid lines that hold the songs title.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Fill in the song's title once it's guessed.
5. NO GOOGLING, or looking up the lyrics.

These aren't in any particular order.
1. The inside lingo had me at hello and we go where the money goes. ("The Curse of Curves" by Cute is What We Aim For--guessed by Andy)

2. To be a joke and look, another line without a hook. I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look. ("I'm Not Okay" by MCR--guessed by Andy)

3. My eyes are open up with pure sunlight. I'm the first to know my dearest friends.

4. She was alone in the room, and somehow I knew that in time I would fall for that look on her face.

5. But I could not recall a more perfect fall cause when I looked up into your eyes it didn't hurt at all. (Laur knows it. But she cheated. Even after I gave her a hint. :P )

6. Brian, buddy, where you been? The term is Asian-American! "Rascism" in the Avenue Q musical--guessed by Laura)

7. I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now.

8. She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo, reminds me that theres time to grow, hey, hey. ("Drops of Jupiter" by Train--guessed by Laur)

9. You're waking up a part of me I've never known, And I've never felt so invincible. What took you so far away? ("Chemistry of a Car Crash" by Shiny Toy Guns--guessed by Laura)

10. He wears his heart safety-pinned to his backpack, his backpack is all that he knows.

11. For mailing letters with the address of the sender, now we can swim any day in November.

12. Oh, I could hide neath the wings of the bluebird as she sings. ("Daydream Believer" by The Monkees--guessed by Laura)

13. Moving forward using all my breath, making love to you was never second best. ("I'll Melt With You" by Modern English--guessed by Laur)

14. Laughing like children, living like lovers, rolling like thunder under the covers. ("I Guess That's Why They Call It the Blues" by Elton John--guessed by Laur)

15. I thought that the world had lost its sway (its so hard sometimes, then i fell in love with you (then came you).

16. Swing, swing, swing the spinning step, you wear those shoes and I will wear that dress. ("Kiss Me" by Sixpence None The Richer--guessed by Laur)

17. I still can't say that I admit we went too far, and you won't see me change my mind but I really wish that I could forget the way you are.

18. So why you trying to do without me when you got me where you want me.

19. When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am. ("Iris" by The Googoo Dolls--guessed by Laur)

20. See we break for the summers so she can find lovers, she treats them like a bottle of wine. ("Dead End" by the Format--guessed by Laur)

welcome home, will

2008-04-25T04:45:09Z

Lynnie is home with her adoptive son, Will. I have not been this ridiculously happy in a while.

A little backstory:

Lynnie was my kindergarten teacher. My mother was teaching at the same school where I attended, which is how she and Lynnie became acquainted, and eventually extremely good friends. I switched schools, but both Lynnie and my mother remained. Eventually, Lynnie got a new job with a different company, and due to unpleasant working standards (to put it nicely), my mother quit and worked for the same company Lynnie did. They needed someone like my mother, they said, and the pay was better. Ever since, both have been working there (although Lynnie is on maternity leave at the moment).

As long as I'd known her, Lynnie did not have a husband. There was nothing wrong with her, she simply just hadn't found the right oppurtunity to settle down. Sure, she dated. I met a few of her boyfriends. They were all very nice, and they all treated her very well (my family made sure of that, though I'm sure Lynnie could have managed on her own). However, for whatever reason or another, none of them were Mr. Right. Until she started dating Tom.

Tom is a wonderful man. I love him with all of my heart, and everyone who knew Lynnie was very happy they were dating. Lynnie was happier than I'd ever seen her, and before we knew it, she and Tom were engaged. They've been the happiest couple I've ever known since.

However, as Tom had a vasectomy, Lynnie was unable to get pregant (I'm sure they could have used a donor, but they opted against it). So, they decided to adopt a little girl from China, as girls are considered lesser there in most areas. However, China has been able to really draw this entire adoption process out very far, and what once was a process that took a maximum of six months now takes at a bare minumum two years. So, they decided to go a different route while waiting for China (they're still going to get their girl from China, they're determined to; it just might take a while).

Guatemala seemed like a faster choice, and so, they pursued it. They signed all the papers, got everything together, went to go pick up their boy, Travis. Everything was set. Well, at the last second, Travis's biological mother pulled out, saying she couldn't part with her baby. We were all heartbroken for Lynnie. She had wanted Travis so badly, and he was almost in her loving arms. So, they were assigned a different boy, Will. As things started getting more serious, Travis's biological mother realized Lynnie and Tom were not going to fight for this woman's only child. They, wanting children so badly, were not going to take that away from somebody, regardless that exact thing had happened to them. So, Travis's biological mother decided she didn't want Travis all that badly, after all.

Lynnie and Tom were quite thrilled, actually. They now were getting TWO wonderful boys. Their eventual daughter in China was going to have two wonderful big brothers. They couldn't have been happier.

Until Travis's biological mother pulled him out again. It was even harder the second time. I don't know what Lynnie would have done if she hadn't already been guaranteed Will. I think she literally would have gone insane, or would have had to have been put on anti-depressants, or something similar. She took it unimaginably hard. She tried being strong, and after all, she was still getting a little one, but it still hurt.

Lynnie and Tom, unsurprisingly enough, decided to no longer pursue Travis. His mother was not going to change, and they wouldn't have been able to bear her backing out a third time.

And, after months of waiting and many, many shed tears, Lynnie and Tom brought Will home tonight. A group of us met them at the airport. They didn't know we'd be there. Both were crying with happiness by the end of it. And Will is such a cutie. None of us could keep our eyes off of him. We were all patting his hair (it sticks up like a rooster's--it's so cute!), and holding his hands, and tickling his little feet. I think we may have overwhelmed him a little, but he'll understand in good time.

I'm absolutely thrilled for both Lynnie, Tom, and their new bundle of joy, ten-month Will.

greenmachinexxx @ 2008-04-22T21:57:00

2008-04-23T03:01:17Z

I hope things get better. For everyone. But for a few people in particular.

Oh, and I'd actually recommend Rootbeer over Pepsi. :]

busy, busy, busy

2008-04-23T01:03:27Z

To-Do List:

1. Finish reading Pretties, as well as the following two books in the series.
2. Finish reading the Kel series, as well as Tamora Pierce's other series.
3. Finish two days of math homework.
4. Start Tash's blend.
5. Finish colorizing Fresca's blend.
6. Complete banner requests relatively soon.
7. Organize my entire room.
8. Get a job
9. Finish Driver's Ed
10. Stop looking for a boyfriend.
11. Go to the gym.
12. Enjoy myself.
13. Write a book.

These aren't really in any particular order. They were at first, and then I couldn't decide which ones were most important, so then I purposely scrambled them all around, and added more as the thought struck me.

meme time

2008-04-22T02:32:14Z

So, I was looking at Laur's LJ, and I wanted to do this. :)

I'm not sure if this is specifically designed for HP!only, but I'm thinking of choosing other people.

1. Tally Youngblood
2. Lily Evans
3. Edward Cullen
4. Alanna of Trebond
5. Ginny Weasley
6. Peris
7. Alice Cullen
8. Jasper Hale
9. Harry Potter
10. Lord Voldemort
11. Shay
12. Blay Raytee

"Don't read the questions until you've chosen your list!">
Have you ever read a Six/Eleven fic? Do you want to?
Wow. I never thought about that. I can totally see it.

Do you think Four is hot? How hot?
I suppose if I was George, I'd think so.

What would happen if Twelve got Eight pregnant?
Hm. Woman empregnates man. I wonder if that one would make Oprah.

Can you rec any fic(s) about Nine?
"Until We Meet Again" on ff.net is my favorite.

Would Two and Six make a good couple?
Hah noooo. Lily would end up murdering Peris. He would drive her nuts. But she could probably cure his bubbliness... (You sort of have to read the book to get that...)

Five/Nine or Five/Ten? Why?
I'm gonna have to go with Ginny/Harry. I've never seen the appeal of Ginny/Voldemort.

What would happen if Seven walked in on Two and Twelve having sex?
She'd probably have seen it beforehand and not gone in. But I could never in a million years see the two of them ever having sex.

Make up a summary for a Three/Ten fic.
*DIES LAUGHING* Mkayy, sooo, Edward Cullen/Voldemort. Basically, Voldemort heard that Edward could live forever, so he killed Bella, entranced Edward, and Edward made him a vampire. Soo, now Voldemort can live forever. Yaaayz.

Is there any such thing as One/Eight fluff?
Tally/Jasper. Hmm, I guess I could see it if Alice didn't exist. But otherwise, no, not really.

Suggest a title for a Seven/Twelve hurt/comfort fic.
Alice Cullen and Blay Raytee. Umm. "Never the End". Maybe Alice turns Blay into a vampire and saves the latter from the weirdo society she lives in.

What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted Four to deflower One?
Alanna screwing Tally Youngblood. She'd probably impress her with her mad woman!knight skills. Or perhaps Alanna would kill off all the Specials.

Does anyone on your friends list read Seven slash?
Alice/Female? Not that I know of.

Does anyone on your friends list read Three het?
Edward/Male. Hmm. Maybe Roop reads Edward/Jacob. (KIDDING, ROOPY!)

Does anyone on your friends list write or draw Eleven?
Shay? Hmm, I don't know if anybody else on my f-list has ever read Uglies.

Would anyone on your friends list write Two/Four/Five?
Ginny/Lily/Alanna. All red-heads. I'd be...interesting. I'd read it.

If you wrote a song-fic about Eight, which song would you choose?
Jasper. Hmm. Something angsty. Maybe "Numb".

If you wrote a One/Six/Twelve fic, what would the warnings be?
Tally/Peris/Blay. OOC to the extreme, but if Blay could ever step out of her shell, it might actually be kind of good.

What might be a good pick-up line for Two to use on Ten?
"I can make you live forever. Let's hook up." Enough said.

When was the last time you read a fic about Five?
It's been a while. I rarely read ff anymore.

Would Eleven shag Nine? Drunk or sober?
Shay shagging Harry Potter. Drunk, definitely. Sober? Maaayybe.

"One and Nine are in a happy relationship until Nine suddenly runs off with Four. One, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with Eleven and a brief unhappy affair with Twelve, then follows the wise advice of Five and finds true love with Three." What title would you give this fic? Name three people on your friends list who might read it. Name one person who should write it.
Umm. Wow. Too confusing.
Tally Youngblood and Harry Potter are in a happy relationship until Harry Potter suddenly runs off with Alanna of Trebond. Tally, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with Shay and a brief unhappy affair with Blay Raytee, and then follows the wise advice of Ginny Weasley and finds true love with Edward Cullen. I'd say something like "Love Dodecahedron" or something. Nobody in their right mind would ever read this. Ever.

How would you feel if Seven/Eight was canon?
I'm thinking now I should have picked characters all from one book, and not five. >.< Buuut, seeing as how Alice/Jasper IS canon, no worries. :)

Oh, and btw, I do not understand how the whole LJ-cut thing goes. It NEVER works for me. I'll have to have le Sooz explain it to me. She rocks at LJ cuts.